#yes i've been listening to i carrion (icarian) on repeat again what about it

[p4nishers]

atlas paralleling aziraphale and icarus paralleling crowley. aziraphale who had to carry heaven's weight on his shoulder, never daring to move in fear of it collapsing on top of him, only to be tricked into taking the weight again after he finally gave it away. crowley Fell from grace because of his curiosity, because of his greed, he flew too close to the sun after being trapped his entire life and "ended" his life because of that. aziraphale made crowley feel lighter than he had in years when he talked to him in eden and crowley couldn't see the consequences this simple action could have because he was just happy to talk to someone without fear. it made him feel like he was flying again. he just wanted to free aziraphale of his burden, of carrying the weight of guilt and sense of duty that came with heaven. the contrast between crowley Falling brutally (sauntering vaguely downwards) and feeling like he's floating bc of aziraphale. he feels free with aziraphale around, he values freedom SO MUCH and with aziraphale, he has that. aziraphale on the other hand can never really let go of what he's carrying, he can never be fully crowley's while still shouldering heaven's burden. aziraphale is crowley's whole universe, like the one they created together. aziraphale carried the sky and aziraphale is crowley's sky. crowley would do anything for aziraphale not to be burdened, even have him drop the "sky". he would have them leave it all behind if it meant aziraphale was finally free of heaven. he doesn't think about fixing heaven because it genuinely doesn't matter to him, he left it behind long ago, he literally fell away, while aziraphale is still so connected with it all, he's still stuck beneath the weight he is holding up on his own. crowley just wants to be aziraphale's, no matter the consequences and more than anything, aziraphale just wants him safe. it's why he's doing it all, he just wants crowley to be finally safe somewhere, even if it means taking up the heaviest burden of all again. anyway.